Seethingly jealous today. I hate being jealous. I wish I could just be happy for myself and everything that I've accomplished. Alas, I guess it's human nature.
I wish I was like so many of my other chemo buddies and didn't gain any weight from chemo. Maybe I'd have more energy now. More confidence, because I'd still weigh 120 lbs. Doubtful. Because I thought I was so fat even then.
I really wonder what my life would be like if I'd never had cancer.
It's dumb to think about those things. It's up there with "if I ever win the lotto" or "What would the world be like if Hitler LIVED?"
I'm sure it would be vastly different than my life now. But would that really be better? And does my life honestly suck? No.
We all can't be twenty years old forever. And Joan Rivers knows, we definitely can't look twenty forever.
On a good note, here's my Halloween costume for this year.
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5 comments:
Oh, we are singing the same song, today - just not for the same reason :) I love you tons, sis.
I understand. Cancer sucks!
Cathy
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